Back and Forth
So I applied for the job, which I think I mentioned before. No word yet, and I am not expecting any word. I keep going back and forth, one minute it's a great idea for me to move, the next it's stupid, and why the hell would I leave, I've got it good here, and blah blah blah.
Indecision is always a big part of leaving...
The thing I worry about the most is that I'll fail if I move back. I've had tough times in the past when moving back there, and though my family is there and I know I want to go back, what if I do get the job and then get fired because of total incompetence? Gah.
Sick :(
I have not had a good couple of days recently. I thought everything was fine until 2 days ago, when my friend Nola was in town. We went for lunch and for dinner, and almost immediately, my stomach was upset. This is nothing new, as it gets upset a lot. But then the next night I went for a barbecue and had almost the same dinner as the night before, only in a smaller portion, and with mashed potatoes instead of fries.
See, I've been trying to eat healthier lately. I don't want to eat out anymore, and I want to make sure that when I do, it's healthy food. And rather than eat the same thing every morning for breakfast, and the same thing for lunch, I have been mixing it up, making egg white omelettes in the morning, and trying to remember to cook foods the night before so I can have something different for lunch.
However, today before work my stomach was so upset I almost called in sick. This is the worst I remember it ever being, and it kind of worried me. I still went to work, but around an hour later I left and went to the doctor.
He was a South African gentleman, and seemed nice, but didn't introduce himself when he came into the room, he just started reviewing the issues I'd covered off with the assistant earlier. He asked me if I'd ever had my stool tested for parasites, and when I said no, I instantly regretted it, because guess what I have to do?
He also recommended that I drink Metamucil every single day for the next week or so, and continue on with the Immodium I've been taking, to see if that helps. Tomorrow morning I have to drop off the sample at the lab, and then we'll go from there. I'm sure everything will turn out fine, and I think the doctor is too, because he didn't seem too worried about my symptoms. He thinks it is just IBS, which is something I've been suspecting for a while now. My family thinks it's all in my head, as they do with most things, and to be honest I'm glad it has a label. I'm tired of telling them that, no, really, it's not within my control, this is something that actually has a real definition.
Nothing has ever made me feel so old as the Metamucil suggestion though. I don't mind, except the only flavour I could find was Orange, and not being a huge Orange-flavoured-anything fan will make it tough for me to choke down.
Ahh well. For now all I can do is wait and hope nothing terrible comes back from the lab. Wish me luck.
So.
My
dream job was just posted. I will not be updating in the next week as I will be working on a cover letter and resume that will knock their socks off.
Saskatoon
Specific things I remember:
-the pot holes are far worse than they ever have been. I don't think the City of Saskatoon remembers how to pave anymore.
-Brooke and I got lost trying to get back to 8th street from Circle Drive East
-Mom cried when she saw us, and again when she saw her present
-I drank a LOT
-the lake in Chitek had tons of ice on it and people were snowmobiling all over the place
-Quads were out, and it was probably the nicest weather Saskatchewan had seen since the last Christmas we visited (ha, ha)
-I got 1 Timmy's coffee, and while waiting in line saw the HOTTEST ambulance attendant in my life. I wanted to attack him as soon as I saw him.
-I did not take nearly as many pictures as I thought I would
-gas wasn't any cheaper there than it is here
-nothing much has changed. Although all my friends have moved onto different provinces/jobs, all of Brooke's friends were still in the same old town, doing the same old shit (if not with slightly different people)
-there are a few new buildings, (including an Old Navy!) but for the most part the city hadn't changed a bit.
-while it was nice to visit, I found I was glad I didn't live there anymore, and more than slightly surprised that the map of the city came flooding back so quickly. I was able to navigate the city a lot easier than I thought I'd be able to.
SURPRISE!
The trip was awesome, everything went off without a hitch, and mom was so shocked she cried! We rule! I'll post a trip wrap up along with a short timeline as to what we did while in Saskabush in a few days. Work has been completely insane lately, because I was off for a week and now will spend the next week keeping on top of things while catching up on what I wasn't here for. Remind me never to take time off again!
